{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Dave}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I know exactly how you're feeling BUT...

Don't think about what you know you need to do. Just get up and move towards the telephone. Don't bother looking in the phone book for the numbers. Call 411 and get them, even if they cost .$50. You don't have to sound all together when someone answers. Just say "I need some help!" and go from there. As you talk, you'll gather your courage and strength. You might even build up some anger (I hope!) and that will give you the fuel you need to keep going. If you don't get any answers, get even angrier! I'm not saying blast the people you're talking to. I'm saying make the anger work for you, to give you energy and strength to follow through. If not today, then tomorrow. Get angry at the incompetence that you're bound to run up against, get angry at the "no's" or "I don't know's" you get, get angry at life, at all those people who bombarded you in email, but STOKE THAT FIRE and make it work for you!

<center><font color=red>I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!</font color=red></center>
You're too intelligent, too wise, too headstrong to not do it!




<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>