I have ideas of what I'd like to do, but I don't have the motivation to start or keep up with hobbies or goals. I feel like a failure when I quit! I quit everything I start.

I do not feel important, I have nothing important to say, and I have nothing important to contribute to anyone or anything. I frustrate people around me and there is no one who is interested in ME... I'm a boring person that no one enjoys being around. At one time, my son thought I was the greatest, but now he's a teen and even he thinks I'm crazy and boring. lol. I need to find things that make me feel good, but I'm beginning to think that it's all just stupid.. There's nothing that will make me feel good because first off I feel like a failure to myself and everyone around me.... This is where the lack of motivation begins. I love traveling and I enjoy helping the elderly, but I don't want to go alone....

My boyfriend only likes me for a movie partner and support for our business. I'm his sounding board for negative emotions and I feel trapped in his world. He's into work, surf, and drinking... If I cannot think of something to do together that he would enjoy, he'll opt to go do his own thing. I feel alone and even my boyfriend is with me only for convenience.

I'm tired of feeling second to everyone else's needs and wants... But, don't know how to make the changes for myself. I'm smart enough to know that it's really just my own emotional/mental problem, but I just can't figure out how to change these feelings and behaviors.

Any thoughts? Ideas? Strategies?