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Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23
I've not had a great day. They're not happy that I made a GP appt! They must be monitoring my phone or something, cos within half an hour of me making the appt they were punishing me with this high pitched noise in my head. It makes it hard to hear my own thoughts over the noise, which I think is the idea. I went out with the dogs because I thought if I could get away from visible people, it might reduce the signal, which it did cos it got quieter in my head, but then got louder again when I was back around people. It's still there 12 hours later!!
I went to a coffee shop after our walk and tied the dogs to the table while I went in the shop to order. When I was eating my sandwich, a Labrador walked past and Max went nuts and ran off after it dragging the table with him. I was so embarrassed and everyone was laughing at me. I carried the table back and tried to pretend everything was fine, but then Max jumped up because he wanted some of my sandwich so I snapped at him to get down, and then I heard a male voice mimic me, and that was the final straw and I quickly left before anyone saw that I was crying. It was only now thinking about it again that I realised that maybe it was a hallucination and not real...idk.
And Mum was kicked out of hospital again without them doing anything to help her. It's not just pdocs that don't give a **** about people suffering!
I'm sorry that people are struggling  I'm afraid that I don't have any advice though :/
*Willow* |
So you're hearing voices again? When did that start...just today? Have you been extremely stressed lately? I can imagine you might be with your mom being sick and all these new T, pdoc and OT appointments. Is there anything you can do to help yourself relax a bit more? Maybe some way of reframing the situation like with the dog and the table stuff like that, well maybe it's an American approach but like if you slip on the ice the first thing you do is laugh in recognition of the humor of it then you are laughing with people and no one is laughing at you...so you know if max was dragging the table I might exclaim wow I had no idea he had that kind of strength or something so it opens up a dialog with those around you instead of setting up a defensive wall that will never hold. Anyway my two cents...
