Come to Colorado, and I will treat you, aside from that you are left to whatever people want to do. You need an AD, and you need to be on it for awhile, maybe longer than a year...I can't say. My advice is get a doc you can trust, your job cannot get your medical records unless you sue them or you let them, and get the treatment you need now. It will just get worse if you do not.

Party if you wish, but remember in the wise words of mike ness "whereever I have gone, I can surely find myself there...you can run all your life and not go anywhere".