I do have a lot of good in me and a lot of love too.

I have just been so bad and struggle to show any part of me that isn't compensatory. People don't believe that I am anything good and they hate me because of thjat. They think I deserve my head being messed with or to be treated badly. maybe they are right

I don't think this life will work out now and most days I don't want to be here

thank you for your kind words and time x