I have the same problem. In my area I don't have any friends or family and have been here over a year, so that is part of my problem, but my husband's family lives really close so he has people but since I don't I just feel I have to put on this happy face. I tried talking to him about all of this but he just gets mad. I wish I could be as happy and positive as some people, or at least show it then maybe id start to believe it.