Homeless people are coping drunkflower, but you don't want to be them now do you??Here is my assessment of you: you like to be in control, and you think you know enough to take control of this. You know/knew someone you did/do not respect who is on meds and dependant, and you vowed to not be like them. You are a professional, and thus feel you should not have the problems the rest of humanity has, and lastly I bet one of your parents expects alot of you and maybe in an unrealistic way............