Quote from Hbomb: "I have to get to work on Monday finding a way to get my meds right and get into intensive therapy. I realize that my strategies in life are part of my problem but I feel like a lazy person that doesn't really want to change. How do you alter that my friends?? Is it truth or just the black depression whispering?"

Hbomb, I am really sorry to hear that you are feeling so bad. I have lived for >30 years going up and down and my episodes keep getting worse. I know that the stresses of my job and attempts of socializing make things worse. I have been on SSDI, unemployed, and anti-social now for 8 months, after a severe mixed episode and depression. Now my mood is fairly stable and now "I feel like a lazy person that doesn't really want to change". I feel worthless. I also ask: "how do you alter that"?