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Old Apr 01, 2014, 01:13 AM
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I had the same dream again just like so many other times. I find out that my sister is alive! She's living somewhere not too far away. She has a good life and a good job but she's been hiding. I finally get my nerve up to go see her and at first she's mad at me for hunting her down but then we move past that. Suddenly it's like old times. We're sitting on a couch snuggled up in a blanket and catching up on everything we've missed. Then I wake up and lose her all over again. I feel every inch of the aching void she created when she left.

In July it will be 18 years since she chose to end her life. So why do I still dream about her? Why am I sitting her bawling like a baby writing this? Why does it still hurt so much to dream about her and why can't I just get over it? I don't really expect anyone to have any answers. I'm just very sad tonight and brooding over why this keeps happening and if it happens to anyone else.
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Thanks for this!
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