I have the gift of Bipolar 1, and am in the depression zone most of the time. I have suddenly shifted into a mixed state with a high level of mania.It's very uncomfortable and confusing. Yet, I am so glad to not be extremely depressed. I feel like I am willing to do anything to keep the mania triggered. I also know how dangerous a high level of mania can be when depression symptoms exist simultaneously. I really need to be under the care of a doctor who has a good understanding of Bipolar and medications. Unfortunately, I don't have a pdoc at all right now. A good, caring doc with personality and who is also good with meds is hard to find. I have recently visited 3, and have been disappointed with all of them.

I have moments of almost joy - and I am laughing. Then I will switch into intense rage. I have had a lot of negative ideations and desires.

How do you cope with mania, and being in a mixed state? I want to jump out of my skin; I want to scream. What can I do to gain control?