One part of my mind says I should chase my dreams, that I should be what I want to be, that I should do whatever makes me happy. It's like 'Go on, chase you dreams, life is short, don't worry about what others have to say'.

In another part of my mind resides, a 'nihilist', it's a voice in my head that says life doesn't really matter, my dreams are all make believe, I'm fooling myself. I should just quit, because in the end, there's no meaning to life, there's no purpose. 'What if I do succeed? What next? what does that success even mean when I'm dead?' This voice says everything I do or want to do is 'stupid and meaningless'. Life has no meaning.

AND.... There's another part of my head, that says

" Learn to Be happy with what you have, you ungrateful bastard"

This part of my head tells me that my search for 'happiness' is selfish, and I should quit being so shallow and materialistic. It tells me that I'm greedy if I look for any more than I already have.

The second and third voices in my brain often overwhelm the first voice.