How 'secret' do I keep my abuse history. Well, the secrets where kept so secret that up until I was in my 40's I didn't know the secrets. Yes, repressed memories are real. DID or MPD, I call them my other selves. We are a pretty cooperative group now, it took a few years to get here. My boyfriend knows and one of my friends knows part of it. A lot of people know I'm depressed. I told family about starting to remember abuse and boy did they turn on me.. It was drilled into my head from a young child that there were certain things you just did not talk about. It's gotten easier to talk about the abuse with people I'm comfortable with, but avoid talking about the DID. Since my boyfriend has had experence with my DID he knows just about everything.