I've been coping pretty well over the last couple of weeks. While I haven't had an attack in a while, I have been getting bouts of loneliness recently. It was never anything serious and didn't usually last long so I didn't think too much about it.

Then today it all came back. It started in out in the morning as a feeling of severe loneliness, before escalating to full-on depression. I tried to fight it, force it back but obviously this only made it worse. Then, in a lecture later in the morning, I started experience a panic attack. I managed to hide it during the lecture but as soon it was over I ran back to my room as fast as I could. I collapsed on my bed and started hyperventilating heavily. This eventually progressed into a crying fit which lasted about ten, maybe fifteen minutes.

I've managed to calm down a bit, but am still pretty shaken and exhausted by the whole ordeal. Worse still, I've begun having... dangerous thoughts, which I thought I'd gotten over. I'm scared that this could be the beginning of a serious regression.