I'm glad that you feel you can hang in there till seeing the therapist. Be sure that you express how bad you've been feeling when you talk to your T. Keep in touch with us here. Feeling absolutely awful doesn't usually last forever, though it can feel like forever. Life seems designed to test us, and that can get real old. You've made it through hard times before, I'll bet. Try to eat something. Try to talk to anyone you know who you trust. I hope this eases for you soon.