Good luck with this. I thought it was interesting you felt you had lost some of the connection. I feel this when I don't let myself really feel it, when I am holding back for some reason. I was curious that maybe you might be stopping yourself for some reason?
I'm sorry her stuff got in the way of your therapy. I remember reading your posts at the time. Whilst you seem to have made a lot of progress over the last 9 months I hope this doesn't lead to more heartache for you. I think that's one draw back with touch, it can be so powerful but if it goes wrong, boy is it disastrous. Will be thinking of you