Over time you will begin to regain skills. Nothing will ever be the same. You will most likely have to deal with people looking at you differently now and for some time at the beginning it will be hard. You will need a great support team, your husband, friends, doctors, therapists, support groups, forums, etc.

In our lives we are thrown challenges. I know exactly where you are with not being grateful to being alive even though your family is. You will develop strategies that help you manage the really rough days and over time the day to day things will get better.

My best advise is to be thankful for what you do have. Know it's ok to be mad and feel sorry for yourself but most importantly you want to keep positive, stay strong, and persevere.