My therapists have never brought up anything sexual, and even when discussing csa they have been careful only using words im comfortable with for now, I have read that sex therapists, do use those words with thier clients, but that is different in your case.

im thinking since you have so much confusion going on in your therapeutic relationship right now, being that its blurred right now, everything is coming into question for you.

until you resolve this with your t, imo, you are not going to be able to work on your goals safely within a good therapy frame.