Hi, tryinghard973,
Yes, being an addict with mental health issues suck. And I know that my mental health issues came first. But the drugs and alcohol and cutting certainly didn't help. Now that I have fallen back into the drug pit, I remember how hard it was to get out the first time; hoping I can get my s*** together. It is hard to retain anything you study when you're high. When you crash you just don't want to study at all. And I work my ***** to get good grades. I am afraid I am going to ruin my life.