Fellow peers, I'm alone for the first time in 21 years I am alone. After 15 years of nothing but toxic, unhealthy, and no self worth, being abused in every way possible by the alcoholic, narcissistic bastard that was my husband. I have taken every form of abuse that exists, I probably subconsciously believe I deserved. He broke me last night. I lay in the bed next to our 8 year old daughter he choked me with one hand, in the other hand was the baseball bat he intended to beat me with when she woke up & started screaming and most likely saved my life. I gave him $60 & our car and told him to disappear. Today I am alone. Today I am a person who took control of her life and though I'm terrified I feel like today I became myself again. The love that I wasted on him is all for myself now. My kids now have a chance to benefit from a healthy home environment & although it hurts I'm free.