I'm sorry that you are going through all of this...

I wouldn't like my T being irritated and saying that I do not do my homework which would be like I do not work hard enough I don't understand why yours told you that...

But it's good that now you can come twice a week and if needed even more often, maybe it will help you opening up? Like the first session in the week you could spend on "easy" topics and the second already on more important? Or in my case it was the opposite, the first was always more important while the second was about easy things so that I could have prepared myself to "survive" the rest of the week without my T...

Unfortunately I do not have any great advice how you can open up, as usually I just say "it", like it's only 10s of braveness and then a week of calmness while if I do not say what I want, I am just mad at myself... Writing down the bullets might work, like write down the keyword and try to read it to her - then at least she knows what the topic is about and can try to help you in exploring it a bit? Or could you send her an e-mail before the session? For me, it is much easier to write than talk... I've read that some people prefer opening up by art - drawing, music etc. - maybe one of these method could help you?

Do you think that you prefer "give a bomb" like saying one sentence which is the worst and see what will happen or you rather prefer going around the topic with a hope that every round will be a bit closer to the topic and closer?