Yeah it felt pretty crappy. I have already been feeling like a failure and like maybe I'm not trying hard enough, so I wish she hadn't said it, but it is what it is.

I think extra sessions will definitely help. At least a bit, anyway. When I used to go twice a week our relationship was closer and the trust and comfort was greater. I feel like I went blank for our next session though. I had sooo much on my mind and have been overwhelmed lately, but it all left me once she scheduled that extra appointment for me.
So now I'm not even sure what to write! For once I actually HOPE I have such a depressing day tomorrow so I could actually recall the things I need to get out. They are all still stuck in my subconscious mind but need to escape for this depression to leave me the hell alone!

I like your idea of alternating heavy/light topics. I will experiment doing it both ways and see what works best for me. At least until I'm comfortable allowing myself to just feel whatever I'm feeling, no matter what session it may be.

The "bomb dropping" is what I struggle the most with! It is that first sentence I absolutely cannot put into words! When it finally comes out it makes zero sense. So frustrating...