Important job interview from last week yielded no results. I was able to apply to a couple places earlier and do some freelance work on my own time, then just played video games. Now I'm drunk at 4 am and ate a sandwich so I could take my Depakote, even though it doesn't work, I still have racing thoughts every night. Feels like more of a hindrance than anything, no money to see a pdoc or therapist. Just waiting for better days I guess.