You should definitely go talk to somebody. Don't beat yourself up because you are doing the best you can. I understand as I cannot work a lot of the time as well. Don't compare yourself to others. As for your family and boyfriend, it can take time for them to be empathetic . The more they are educated and the more you get treatment, the better they can support you. Also you should qualify for disability and housing on your own when the kids move out. May angels surround you.