For crying out loud, I don't even know where to begin...I'm such a mess right now I can't get my thoughts in order to express myself and what I'm going through. Your all bp, so you know how it is. The issue is that I have been very very sick the past 3 weeks...vomiting all the time...which means no meds staying in my system. I've gone for medical tx, but it's not helping.

I can't stand the silence, it makes my head so loud. I feel so many things all at once that I don't know what I'm feeling. I'm doing and saying all those stupid, destructive and life altering things.

Like I said, hanging on by a thread.