I have always had difficulties throwing a topic out there too. What helps me is that my T usually tells me to think back on how things have went previously, and how she has reacted positively to things I have said. I always manage to tell her something huge, and then when I tell her the next big thing that may not even be worse, I "forget" how she reacted in the past. I always think that this time will be different, and it's tough to keep the perspective in my mind that she won't hurt me. But it does help to think back to difficult things I've said in the past, so I thought I'd offer that suggestion.

I'm curious to know what your T meant about having boundaries with your fear and not letting it into the room. Did she explain that further? I feel like that would either be not helpful at all, or else be a really good suggestion. Either way, I kind of want to try it.

I hope things get better for you with these extra sessions.