Asked today why after on Monday when I finally asked her my first ever intimate question and she had given a really nice reply, why I couldn't show her then and there how much it meant to me? T said its proberbly because I feared her taking it away again.

I was amazed that I even said this today. That I let her know that what she had said was really nice! Then I scanned her bookshelves again and spotted a book that I am interested in, and she said I could borrow it.

She's made an offer of a book before, but I refused, to scared to let her see that I really wanted to have something of hers. But today I said ok, but I'll borrow it over the Easter break, that way I know you have to come back because I have your book.

T said thats a good idea. I can't believe I allowed her to see that much of me, that I want something of her's to hold onto!

MInd you this evening I have to laugh at the maddness of it all, I mean as if the book would guarentee her returning LOL!