Try to remember that when people say ugly things about you.....they are really talking about themselves; they dislike/hate....themselves and so they take it out on other people. Happy, well-adjusted people NEVER abuse others. Don't die......LIVE; do all of the things you have wanted to do. THe Verbally Abusive Relationship by Patricia Evans saved my life. Abusers are miserable, unhappy, frustrated people. Don't allow ANYone to tell you who you are...YOU are the only one who defines who you are.