Thanks Talulah. I have been going for about a year. My T says I am making a lot of progress, and I have friends that say I have made a lot of progress too. But I am just so overwhelmed and my life is such a mess, everyday it seems to get messier. I guess it is the fallout from the changes that I am making - I will say I have made a huge amount of change in my life and others have not taken it very well. So I guess alot of it is backlash and resistance but it just makes this road so much harder. Sometimes I sit and wonder how did I end up here????? My T has been tremendously helpful. He was the one that had me make the changes and as terrified as I was in the beginning and as awful as it has been - it is the best thing I could have ever done for myself. I had a family member call last night and she said that she was truly amazed because she didn't think the I would or could do this. I am a little angry with this family member and I would really like to thumb my nose at her, but I am really glad that I proved her wrong - I didn't do this to prove her wrong I did this because I truly want a different life but I don't want what is currently going on, but T assures me that this won't be forever - it is because I have upset the system. This is probably way more than you wanted to know. Sorry it is so long.