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Originally Posted by sophiesmom
Thanks so much, Zinco I'll check it out. Not sure that I can succeed at ANYTHING anymore...
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Sure you can. Be patient with it though.
So I decided to meditate today because of this thread. I certainly don't think meds are an impediment but depression sure is. I was doing my deep breathing and my usual and trying to really be aware of how I was feeling and all I could feel was a dull thud in my brain. Its like half my brain is dead. Part of it must be working because I can walk around and do things and eat and talk. But I swear half of it is dead. Just dull thud up there is the only way I can describe it. I was able to meditate somewhat and get real relaxed but I couldn't go to my happy place and I couldn't send any nice tinglys around. I have faulty wiring. So what the hell causes the wiring to start working again when I snap out of these depressions. It makes no sense. Wiring in a car or house either works or it doesn't work. If it doesn't work you fix it and it works. It doesn't bounce back and forth between states of working and not working.
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The "paradox" is only a conflict between reality and your feeling of what reality "ought to be." -- Richard Feynman
Major Depressive Disorder
Anxiety Disorder with some paranoid delusions thrown in for fun.
Recovering Alcoholic and Addict
Possibly on low end of bi polar spectrum...trying to decide.
Male, 50
Fetzima 80mg
Lamictal 100mg
Remeron 30mg for sleep
Klonopin .5mg twice a day, cutting this back
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