The month away was finishing the separation with my wife, packing stuff up etc… And the trip was with her, to my favorite place in the world. Which ended up being a daily fight, and my only relief was talking to my new relationship every day. My new relationship cried, and did tell me she didn’t trust me several times during this trip. She said she thought I was playing her. That I was never really coming back. I told her I thought she was being silly. My wife and I had not had sex in two years. She said the no sex was because I was not romantic enough. No birthdays, holidays, or anniversaries. My new relationship knew all this. I was very open. Looking at facebook the morning after the event, my new relationship put my favorite photo of herself on her facebook profile. She also sent me lots of new photos where she looked great, not nude, during the trip. She described the sex in detail, at my request. And following their texts and facebook checkins I know everything. I checked out his facebook, and he looks just like me. Same eye color, same build, same everything, people would think we were brothers. So I run it through my mind over and over. I just want it to stop. I want to believe that I am stupid for having this problem. I am a very tough person. This type of problem is very new to me. I normally just rub some dirt on it and walk off. But I love her, and I know she loves me. So I have to get past this problem. I know I’m wrong, and this is almost all my fault. I know I can’t fix it. I think that is a huge part of the problem. Just writing this has helped a lot. I feel a lot better right now.