Hm-m-m-m-m... it's peculiar... those are the same voices I hear in my head! If one believes that there is nothing beyond the grave except non-existence, which I do, then it does tend to make it difficult to find much meaning in anything. So what if I don't accomplish anything in my life, either for myself or for someone else? We're all just "dust in the wind" anyway...

I suppose this is why religions developed to begin with. Human beings couldn't survive without some sort of faith in life beyond the grave & some reason not to just do whatever was useful at the moment, including: murder, pillage, rape & whatever else would get someone what they wanted. If someone's in my way, why not just off them? They're just another organism. It's not like we don't have a few to spare! (There are over 7 billion of us on the planet now. Actually, most of the other organisms living on the planet would be better off without us.)

I don't know what the answer to this is, Brokenentity. As I said, those same voices you hear in your head, I struggle with as well. As for me, I just try to ignore all of them & just focus on what needs to be accomplished each day... not saying that this is a good or bad way to handle it, it's just what I do. I'm going to be writing a post in the "Coping with Emotions" forum that may be of interest in this regard.