I hope you get to see a doctor soon, too. Waiting is something that gets under my skin, too. I'm glad you come here to vent. I find it helpful, too.
I know it's hard with kids depending on you. Hope you get to feeling better real soon.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
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