Moving tomorrow.... Mixed feelings.. I'm so psyched to get out of here and start fresh, but I'm heading out into the unknown and have no current prospects. So it might just turn out to be a huge failure and I'll end up having to come back to Venezuela, which I do NOT want. I'm really nervous about it. My bags are all packed, but wow I cannot believe the amount of crap a person can accumulate. I'm leaving a ton of things that I really wanted to keep, and that makes me sad. I'm very afraid right now, I'm going completely out of my comfort zone and I don't know how to calm myself down right now. I think that maybe I'm making a mistake by taking such a big risk? I'm freaking out a little.

On a side note, I did something a little childish today. Asked my ex to block me on Instagram, since we have mutual friends that could inadvertently lead me to info on the general feed page. Also his profile is public and I know that I will check eventually. I do not want to find something that will break me. Yeah, it is sort of a self punishment ritual to do that, so knowing how I am I asked him to block me. He never responded and has not actually blocked me yet. So I'm annoyed about that too.