All the people I have ever known. Anyone that is involved in it. other people who have found out over time......

Specifically - spent my time high and being egotistical. Told this person everything I knew about everyone. Passed judgement on them and their lives.

Was verbally abusive to this person, acting uncaring, spent their money, insulted them, kept them awake, slagged them off ....I was very destructive in every area of my life. Quite a lot I don't fully remember tbh

I didn't drown cats or slap about old people or anything like that, if that's what you are getting at?

Now people comment or make reference to personal things that he told everyone. They have me around so that they can take the piss or they hate me.

Breezy day -Thank you for your message. I am sorry you have experienced something similar. I feel truly sympathetic if that is the case. Please share your story and how you feel about it on this thread? I would want to listen xx I also put on this 'fake' me. I struggle to know how to be around people and be alright and sociable without it. I feel I have to put it on or I would just be low and sad and massively insecure otherwise. I also worry about dealing with all the pain so I lock it all away as I think I might have a really bad breakdown otherwise and I worry about that. xx