Thanks... I just don't know. I don't believe life can be good. I feel entirely empty and overwhelmed, I can't face what I'm dealing with.

Oh children... I'm scared of them. I couldn't bear working with them, I've tried it before as a required part of a different ministry, and it drives me crazy - seriously. I'd get minor anxiety attacks, overwhelmed to tears, and self-injury/suicidal impulses. But therapy-wise I'm probably set, my T works mostly with children and adolescents, just a few adults, I originally saw her 3 years ago as an adolescent, so seeing her now makes sense.

I have so much stress right now, with no really good reason to continue. And so trapped at the moment, because if I told anyone in person how not-safe I am I'd probably have to go back to the hospital, which would keep me from finishing my coursework and the necessary financial prep to attend college in a month, which I don't really even want to do but it's my only option because I have to live on campus to get out of my house. But I don't want to live, anyway! I don't want to hold on or fight anymore, nothing could be worth this.

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Matthew 11:28
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.</font color=green> Sounds good...