Well, I don't know that I have an answer to this, Zinco. I have done allot of reading, over the years, with regard to meditation practices. In several books that I read years ago (I don't recall the names at this point) it stated that people who struggle with depression should NOT meditate. Of course, nowadays, meditation is actually recommended as something that is beneficial for fighting depression... times change...

There are, of course, many different ways to meditate & perhaps, when your depression is at its worst you might find it more useful to do a more active type of meditation such as walking meditation or yoga-type exercises done with a meditative approach. (There is actually at least one book in print on mindfulness yoga.)

There is also a very simple Tai Chi practice called: Tai Chi Chih. It was developed by an American Tai Chi master for use by people who would like to do Tai Chi, but who for whatever reason don't want to get into learning any of the more classic Tai Chi practices. Actually, the first Tai Chi Chih exercise, which is a warm-up exercise, can be done all by itself. It is recommended that it be done 100 times. I sometimes do this. (I used to have a video up on YouTube of this movement. But it's not there anymore.) Still I would think that one could search Tai Chi Chih & find the entire routine, including the first warm-up exercise. But, then, of course, there are lots of other possibilities as well. The point is just to try finding another type of meditation technique that perhaps will work better when your depression is worse.