I have been on this self help journey I suppose and this week I am finding out that I am NOT who I thought I was and I do not know what to do with this information.....

Seems like a great start. Exploring yourself is a great step forward.

For me, when I started that journey I learned that the anger I had for my dad blinded me from all the "good stuff" and "good times" we shared.

I too wouldn't commit and had 1 foot out the door as a standard practice. I then learned that this attitude was just as much about the present as it was about the past. What I mean is that the past, combined with the new society around me, left me feeling totally committed to my independence. I come from a time and culture where opening the door for an elderly person was automatic. Caught me off guard when I was offered a managerial position by the GM who saw me do it.

Continue to grow. Continue to learn. Your relationship with yourself will surely be an asset in any and every relationship.