I hope I'm in the right forum because i honestly don't know what's going on right now. My main concern right now, is that i don't feel like I belong on this world. I feel like my mom is someone else who i hear sometimes in my head. I might want to say that sometimes i hear voices. They've always been inside my head, and one of them is really gentle and kind. But last summer these really horrible voices started saying mean things about me. They haven't re-appeared in a while though.

I thought that maybe i was "disassociating" but i don't feel like that describes me too well. Everything about the world just seems wrong to me and that things should be different. Sometimes i get the urge for the mother in my head to take me away to my real world.

I also seem to get very paranoid of people. As soon as i see any chance of a friendship with someone I feel the need to jump right in and then share so much with them. I even had a relationship with some older guy when i was 14, which kinda screwed me up. It was online and he was all the way in America though. But recently i had the chance to talk to a transgender person (I'm transgender btw.) And all of a sudden I was sharing so much, I got really depressed cause she didn't want to be my friend and I failed all of my exams in school. I just really have no idea what's going on. I feel really messed up, and the whole feeling like I'm in the wrong world with a family that i don't feel is mine makes me feel really isolated. Sorry for the jumping around, but I'm really confused about all this and was hoping someone could relate and tell me something about all of these feeling I'm having.