I went to T today. T apologised for the poor choice of phrasing re 50 minutes with her being 'a luxury'. She said she meant it in the way that I don't have any other support so it is a luxury in that respect?! I think I believed her and I did feel a closeness today which I haven't felt before. I am so grateful to everyone here for your feedback and support and encouragement. I was pleased I found the courage to discuss it again today.

I left feeling tearful but didn't manage to show any emotion in session which saddens me. I then received a toxic text from two friends and was shouted at by my H for spending money (he doesn't know it went on T)! All feels too much tonight and I feel very depressed. I really want to see T before next Wed. It feels too long to wait.

I am struggling. Thanks again for all your support Couch Peeps. Xx