I first had my first pychosis from adderall. I was but on 60mg xr and it was all over from there. I never was into uppers, never liked cocaine, never liked alcohol, and then I discovered opiates. I started with percs then roxys and before you know it I was shooting heroin. I feel like the opiates really put my mind at ease. The withdrawal sucks so I went on suboxone which I did very good on. I started drinking about 2 years ago after I quit heroin. I was drinking about 15 beers a day and before you know it I was in the hospital again from pychosis. It was then that I got off the suboxone because I was outta my mind. So when i came outta the hospital I was clean off bupe and everything. I stopped taking my meds and im trying to beat whatever i have. The hospital says they cant get a diagnoses on me because i wasnt without substance abuse for a long period of time. So since november I have been depressed, racing thoughts, major anxiety, paranoia at times. So i went back to the docs for some subutex. I knew since I was without opiates that it would get me ripped. He also gave me xanax bars which i rarely take. I will not catch a benzo habbit. I have only used 2 xanex within about 2 or 3 weeks. The subutex is a different story. I started sniffing them which made me more active. I could clean my house, I just have more energy. I feel lke the subutex helps with my depression and ive read many articles where people take bupe for depression. I havent taken any today because im debating whether its worth it or not. I want the same feelings they gave me before i built up a tolerance. Its so hard for me to just take them when i have a craving because Im an addict and I know they will get me in the long run.