Thank you so much for all of your replies!! It feels good to know that there are folks out there that understand what it is like. I will be getting a referral from my doc for a therapist. And I will keep trying them till I do find one that feels right for me. Been allowing this to go on for too long. Ready to see what I can do to make this better. My 12 y/o daughter told me today that she was worried about me. (my kids don't live with me) She wants to see my smile again.

Man oh man it is amazing how at 12 y/o can put it just like it need to be said.

Not at all I ordered The Feeling Good Handbook that this site recommends. Its really the first book that I am going to try. More of a direct approach at changing my outlook and pushing my depression back.

Sorry, I should have been a bit clearer on this. I have a form of muscular dystrophy. It's a odd form. Luckily it is the sort that will not shorten my life or permanently put me in a wheelchair. It does however affect my mobility. When I keep it controlled with diet the worst it does is cause fatigue to come out of no where. At its worse, it can make me where I can't even stand. A full blown paralysis. That was the case for me growing up. Since the doctors couldn't figure it out and the fact I seem complete fine between attacks is why they wrote me off at making it up.

I sure will Cherry! Thanks

Again, thanks for the thoughts and kind words.