I get you Elektra. I really do. After 30yrs of depression, these last 4yrs have also been the toughest for me. The last few days, I feel like I've hit rock bottom--like there's no more fight left in me. But I can still give you a few virtual hugs
Plus manage a heart-felt smile

I know you're angry and frustrated, but please don't give up hope. You ARE a good and special person.