maybe you don't need to be perfect to be friendly or loving. Maybe it just shows through the open heart you have.

its 4 years is that time to find what your good at and what is working and change it so you feel better. its that hurdle where you don't believe what has happened or not happened at all. But why now?

circumvent a new you someone who is happy with who they are and not without anyone around. its a new beginning a fair new beginning. Go get a new hairstyle or color or cut. a change in the wardrobe (shopping at thrift stores) buying a new pair of shoes like some chucks.

OR

3 day "ME" Vacation go some place that you haven't been before that is in driving distance away.