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Originally Posted by nottrustin
Glad to see that I am not the only one who struggles with my identity in Christ. Growing up I had issues with the church I attended and stopped going. I converted after marrying hubby an am VERY involved in our church (Eucharistic Minister, leader of the children's liturgy, help hubby with lost of Knights of Columbus, etc). The problem is that over the last year I have questioned it a lot the only person who really knows is T (hubby and best friend know some but only a little bit) I fake it a lot at mass.
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It's not unusual to struggle with your identity in Christ. You have been through a lot! Not just your issues in your past, but then also with the church you went to. So it's not a surprise that you struggle - it's normal. But the one thing we Christians "know" is that God never actually leaves us. Even if we "fake" it. I had a rough time for a while where all I had for God was contempt. I thought I wasn't really a Christian. But every time I was in need, it was like I sent a prayer and somehow God came through for me. This might sound absolutely crazy.. But I once prayed and told God I wasn't able to believe in him any more if there wasn't a clear sign.
He sent the most amazing incredible real miracle I have ever experienced in my life :-)
Even in that spiteful state I was in, he was still there and still powerful.