I have had 4 different occasions in hospital ranging from 1 week to 4 weeks. The last incorporating ECT - shock therapy.

I can only say that it was nothing like the images from the movies. Granted, I was in a private and sinfully expensive hospital but it was good for me. I will never regret having been in a psych hospital.

If your instinct is carrying you here (to a hospital, I mean), despite your fears - perhaps you should follow it.

Your life is so important. You are important.

I hope you find peace with what you need to do.