Even though I have an overall positive relationship with both T's, I still have negative reactions to them. I can relate to what you are saying.

A couple of weeks ago, CBT T had a bit of an outburst towards me, which to me sounded a lot like yelling. He went from being "safe" to someone who seemed capable of lashing out and hitting me.

When at my most suspicious, I often feel my T's are trying to hurt me. Intentionally.

The only way out of it for me is to ask clarifying questions in a non-accusing way. You seemed upset with me--did you raise your voice because you are mad at me?? Stuff like that.