Wow it's been a while since I've been to this topic.

Well to just give an update is that it's been 2 months now and I've coped pretty well. I tried to contact her on the day of my birthday, left a message and even a friend request but didn't receive a response. I left it there for around a week and still didn't get a response (no denial nor acceptance) so eventually I decided that possibly this is my wake-up call. I shouldn't have to depend on someone for happiness so much, in fact the thing being I feared mostly that even if I went back then what would that change? Be another story or just a huge stitch in the side of trust?

She comes to my mind once or twice but not on the level of last month where I got depressed over the breaking point. I started taking up new hobbies (got into playing harmonica and back into photography) and improving my writing as a way to cope. I realize that I might never get her back, maybe it was meant to happen like this or possibly we'll meet again in the future. Who knows right?

I'm just glad we left off on a good note and we would have memories of the good times we've had. These things just happen I guess, sometimes you can't fight it.