I am really struggling today. Have just left one job (pushed out and left badly) and starting another job which isnt going well. I am feeling pathetic, idiotic and vulnerable. Totally out of my comfort zone. I was in the last job for 11 years and feel totally used and abused. Added to this I had a nasty situation last night with two friends. I am fed up of being used. I am a door mat. They all acknowledge this and treat me differently to our other friends. This hurts and I feel invisibe, as if they can go on hurting me because I dont matter. My H is a bully. My teenage sons are behaving like him. I am not eating because I am stressed and I feel so ill. I am anxious, trying to hold it all together but feel on the verge of tears (I am at work) this wouldnt be good. I cant go on like this.