I lost two jobs in a row due to depression a year and a half ago. I went into a six month long very deep depression after that. The depression started way before I lost the jobs. I had 4 really good months after that and then the good ole depression came back just like clockwork.

My family and I decided the best thing to do was apply for social security disability. I have been in a depression since Oct. but in the last few days I have been feeling much better.

My problem is like yours. I have no idea what to do with myself during the days. The social anxiety is still real bad so that makes it hard to get out and do anything. I am feeling good enough the last couple of days to be bored out of my mind. When I completely snap out of this depression, which always happens at some point, then it is not so hard. I naturally want to go out and do things. Last summer I did a bunch of home improvement projects for my parents and sold a ton of stuff on Ebay.

When in this place I think we have to find meaning and purpose in the smallest things. We even have to find meaning and purpose in our suffering. It is not for naught.