hey u sound just like me. I have been screwing up bad and i don't know what to do either and it's so embrassing to even post. i broke all the plumbing in our house last weekend and i kno my husband knows what's going on and is so mad and wont talk to me. i'm worried he's going to leave and take my daughter if i don't get better. sorry you are suffering so much right now. hugz & luv,